In arguements I tend to (after calming down) apoligise for everything – I would rather everything be okay than be right – but its not okay – my partner says horrible things to me and never apoligises for his behaviour or his words but Im supposed to forget and move on and if i bring anything up, he gets angry at me again and i need to get over myself and grow up. WTF, I am resenting the fuck out of him at the moment – he leaves as soon as I get home leaving me to do everything – I did the school and kindy drop and pick up around work and had to rush home because he had to leave. This is such a shit way to live – is it so hard to make the bed or do the dishes …do fucking something other than drink coffee, smoke and get stoned in the shed all day?? I ask so little to be happy! Is it too much to ask for him to want to spend time with me – I want to feel like im in a relationship not flatting with some annoying fucktard who pays fuck all and does nothing. Maybe this relationship is over and Im just beating it to death, holding on to what it used to be like when i was special and important to him.
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